As I sit here at the end of a long day, finally settling into my meditative practice—something I couldn’t find time for all day—I allow the tears to roll down and cleanse the weight of it all. Today was meant to be filled with things I wanted to do and achieve. And while I enjoyed much of it—returning to familiar tasks, kicking things off, and starting fresh—it unfolded with its share of challenges.
From driving my daughter to school because her train was canceled (a two-hour round trip), to taking my son to Forest School, to bringing 2 weeks old Kitten and his family to the vet for a sticky eye treatment, there was no shortage of unexpected demands. I even helped my mum book a flight to Ukraine to fix her tooth. So much happened, and I did so much.
But as I reflect, I notice I didn’t complete everything I had on my list. I’ve accomplished something, even if not everything. And tonight, I consciously choose to celebrate myself—not for what remains undone, but for what I did manage to do. I choose to appreciate the small, beautiful details of what I have, instead of focusing on what I don’t. Every speck matters, and tonight, I honor them all.
We’ve even sold a caravan today! I’ve cooked two meals, picked up my son from Forest School, and shared a wonderfully juicy chat with a friend at the gates. Though my son gave up waiting for me and fell asleep, I now sit on his bedroom floor, meditating, and reflecting on the day.
As I meditate, I’m reminded of another special boy who was born today—a soul I feel deeply connected to. I had the privilege of supporting his mother throughout her pregnancy, helping her call his soul into this world through rituals, sacred guidance, and numerous Feng Shui consultations to bring balance to their family and relationship.
That little boy is extraordinary. Though he’s not mine and I don’t see him often, the bond I feel with him is profound. Even after he was born and faced a rare blood condition, healing followed. Today, he thrives on this planet, and I know he’s destined to grow into a remarkable leader or changemaker.
As I think of him, I send my love and wish him the happiest of birthdays. His presence here feels like a gift to the world, and I hold his journey close to my heart.
Do you take time to reflect on what you’ve done, on all that you’ve achieved? Or do you find yourself constantly nagging yourself over what you haven’t accomplished, feeling like your actions are too small or insignificant? It’s easy to fall into the trap of comparing reality to an idealized version of what you think you should have done.
Have you ever tried meditating? Or do you think it’s just for some far-out yogis living in the Himalayas, eating a single leaf a day and drinking dew from the trees? In truth, meditation is no longer a luxury or a distant, mystical practice. In the world we live in today, it’s not a question of whether you want to meditate—it’s a necessity.
I want to take a moment to honor myself for transforming my scattered, galloping thoughts—blended with Russian, Ukrainian, English, and a dash of Azerbaijani—into a coherent, profound, and easily understood piece of writing. I couldn’t have done it without the help of ChatGPT, and I’m deeply grateful for this little AI assistant.
But know this: the essence of these words is mine. They come from the depths of my heart and the capacity of my soul. This clarity, this courage to speak so openly to you, didn’t come overnight. It came through years of daily practice—practices that slowly built the confidence and trust within myself to share this way.
So, if you’re reading this, I invite you to try it. Whether it’s meditation, reflection, or simply opening your heart to yourself, give it a chance. You won’t just be surprised—you’ll find your way back home.
With all my love,
Amanjot
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